April 28, 2010

Grr...

Because it's been quite a terrible week, where customer service is concerned. 'Cos somehow, the small thing can break the whole deal, or the whole mood. 'Cos people rarely mean what they say and do what they mean. 'Cos there are some distances that are just too long to attempt catching up on. 'Cos a mistake can be made right if it's rectified soon enough. 'Cos some mistakes will persist until its expiry date. 'Cos some things, you just have to wait it out.

xxx

Singtel service SUCKS a deal! They have systems that don't work and customer service crew that works only to pay customers lip service. Hear it here - I'm NOT going to renew my contract with Singtel once the current one expires. In a-blardy 2 years time. Damn.

xxx

I'm in a dun-get-in-my-way-unless-totally-necessary mood.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:36

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April 23, 2010

Over it

Happens. Every 3 months, or so.

The mundane. The mundane and the unexpected always push us to the edge of our sanity.

Once you get to the edge, it's either an elevation or a free fall. Rarely, a leap of faith.

That's how it is, attached.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 01:33

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April 18, 2010

Jet

2 years of Nokia, then 2 of Samsung, then 2 of Nokia and now, we're back to Samsung.

Thank you, Emman, for the Samsung Jet.

My new toy. I just hope I play a lot, so the 'Smarter than a smart-phone' won't be in vain.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 00:57

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April 06, 2010

bugged, unexpectedly

I was flu-bugged 2 days ago, quite unexpectedly. Like, there were no pre-symptoms or warning signs. I was just down with the flu bug.

Better now but really did enjoy the deep, long sleep after popping the lil yellow flu tablet. I dreamed a bit, but couldn't remember much.

Deep, long sleep... really nice.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 12:29

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A different perspective

Emman said he doesn't have a single reason to spell out why he loves me. He said it's the whole person, everything. He said, it's a feeling.

I hated that. I think feelings are the most unreliable things to have when it comes to loving someone. To me, love is a verb, not a noun that one can own and take for granted. So, when the reasons for loving someone all sum down to a feeling, it certainly sounds shaky. To me, love must be for real reasons that can be listed out. Preferably, reasons that are intrinsic to the person you love, that are traits so much of her that they form her. Then, I think, it becomes more reliable.

Then. I changed my mind. Not the whole piece of it. But I did take on his perspective.

Because people do change. The most intrinsic, most trademarked trait of a person can change too. We all change, especially under different circumstances, different pressure, different payrolls. Perhaps, then, to love a person for what I thought to be the traits of the person is as unreliable as a feeling.

Emman said loving someone because you feel love for her gives you more control in choosing to love her, regardless that she may change. Free will. Even if you lose 'the feeling', you still have a choice to love her - love is a verb; it can be acted. But, if you love someone for he's (e.g.) patient, one day when you find that he's not so patient anymore or there's someone more patient than him, it gives you more reason to love him less and (here's the worse part) blames him for that.

I was confused. Just a little. 'Cos it seemed like we were going in circles and in the end, it seemed like it doesn't really matter the reasons, or the kind of reasons.

Emman said I like to go down the negative trail of thoughts.

I think I'm just insecure more often than him. Note that doesn't mean I'm more insecure than him. It only means I show my insecurities more often than him.

In any way, I take his perspective too, while retaining mine. Love - an action of care, trust and respect, regardless of all.

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 12:11

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